pumpkin patch time. I'm making my hubby take me to a place called Sauvie Island. The pic for here -->
is one of the corn mazes they've done. It's a big place. But I've never been there.
Okay, so today we have one of my new favorite songs from one of my absolute FAVORITE bands.
I Will Wait by Mumford & Sons.
And the snippet I'm giving you is from Goodbye Avery. Joshua is the person I see singing this song. He is the guy that will never leave her no matter what. So, I hope you like the song and the snippet. Haha, maybe that's what I'll start calling Friday posts like this.
As soon as the door slides closed my breath is sucked out. I take deep gasps but no air enters my lungs. She’s going to be okay, that’s what the nurse said. But will she? Will either of us ever be okay?
“Avery. Take slow breaths. Come on, deep inhale.” Joshua’s in front of me.
I do what he says but it doesn't help. So I sit down on the cold, wet pavement and put my head between my legs.
“Breathe in.” Joshua crouches in front of me. “Breathe out.” He touches my arms. “Breathe in, good. She’s going to be okay.”
Finally air fills my lungs and the tightness lessens. I breathe in and out a few times. My heart slows. Joshua’s still in front of me, gripping my arm. Mimicking my breathing rhythm.
“I really want to be left alone.” Each word hurts as I say them. He’s the only thing keeping me sane at this moment. But I need to do this. For him. Everything I touch turns to shit. And he is perfect.
“Fine, but I’ll be inside if you need me.” He gets up, his warmth leaving me.
“No. I didn’t mean out here. I want you to go home.” I wrap my arms around my knees.
He stands there for a second then crouches down again, touching my chin lightly, pulling it up so I’m looking in his eyes. “I won’t let you treat me like you did Natalie and Trevor. You can’t make me disappear.” His lips are warm on mine but only for a moment. “I’ll be inside with your friends.”
I close my eyes and his hand disappears, he’s gone, and I’m alone. Which is the way it needs to be. I don’t want to talk about what happened in his room. About the kisses that made my skin feel normal, about how happy he made me feel. Or the vision Dad showed both of us. I want to forget it all ever happened.
I get to my feet and go back inside. Caleb stands next to the ER door, waiting for me. Mrs. Stone is perched in a chair, Nathan and Lexy on either side. Joshua sits next to Rory and Sean while Tommy leans against the wall. After everything Joshua won’t leave me, even when I try to push him away. None of them have left. I should have known Rory wouldn't budge either.
AH! It's in the wild now. Haha. That is my sad little Avery. I am over at FFF today interviewing one of my favorite people in the whole world. Cristina dos Santos. ;)
So, whatcha doing this weekend???